Last year (at 38),I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome. Until then I had lived in the dark. I've always believed that I was different and felt as though people didn't completely understand me. Things were difficult, but after the diagnosis, I look back at what I've accomplished with more pride than ever. In my situation, Autism actually does have benefits.
Autism provided the obsessive drive that has allowed me to achieve nearly every goal I've ever set. When I was 12 years old, my goal in life was to manage the operation of an amusement park in Los Angeles. At 17, I started as a Ride Operator and fought my way up; every year moving closer to my dream. The Aspergian's unyielding determination helped me achieve my goal eventually managing the Operations Division, (pretty good for someone who is anti-social, anti-crowds, anti-noise...). The park helped me learn coping skills that I use on a daily basis. I can put on a face and mimic like a champ! When needed, I can turn on my social side, although I still loathe social events. Case in point: I tried to ditch out on a Christmas party where I was to be driven in a limo and receive a plaque for Operations Employee of the Year... hehe! Immersion into the uncomfortable can be beneficial. Years ago, I left Six Flags; Autism is my obsession now.
I wish that I would have been diagnosed earlier in life. Post-diagnosis has been eye opening. Now, my life makes sense. Granted, Autism is not easy and it has certainly helped push me to the edge time and time again, but now that I finally know, I'm better prepared. I discover new tendencies that we Aspies have on a daily basis and adjust accordingly. Awareness is life changing. I realize that crowds, noise, chaos, social events are not my style. However, I still view it as a gift in my case. I feel for people who struggle with it, but as for me, I don't want to be cured. I don't need a cure. I'm Autistic and proud.
Johnstown, CO
