im not autistic, but because of the way i am i sometimes wonder

I was born in Houston Texas on August 17, 1990, and from the first time I can ever remember I was being made fun of, I didn't ever know why. I remember only having a few friends throughout Jr high and high school, I was taken out of public school for disruptive behavior and put into a private school, my ADHD and depression were always very complicating, I thought I would fit in more if I did the things that the cool kids do and smoke weed and drink on lunch break, so I did.
in college I continued this low self esteem behavior thinking id fit in more, not knowing that because of my actions I would end up with a DUI, an assault charge, heavy drug and alcohol abuse, and multiple suicide attempts,
to this day on January 19, 2014, I still have suicidal thoughts, alcohol and drug addictions, and very very few friends.

Joseph Lami
Houston, TX