Ever since I was a baby (three weeks early and 4lb 11oz), my mother knew instantly that I was different because I hardly kept eye contact with her and from what I know I did not start talking till I was two or three years old, my first word was juice. My mum told me also that as a child, I would line up colouring pencils and even toy cars in a line. I even hated transitions in my life, because when my parents split up when I was eight, I was so upset and blamed myself for it. Two years later, ten years old I was in and out of primary school, having tests and after all this, I was diagnosed with mild Asperger's Syndrome. My whole world turned upside when I found out this, because I felt strange and not myself at all.
It was something at that time, I was not proud of as I knew I would get bullied throughout my secondary school years which did happen. I hated school so much, I was in and out of that too, receiving speech and language therapy. During this, they would help me recognise facial expressions, body language, tone of voice and even emotions/feelings which I struggled to get to grips of. I was even suicidal, I did not want to live, because I felt my life would not be a normal one. I felt abnormal at times and asked why I am the one like this.
However, I can assure you, today at almost 22 years old; I am proud of the person I have become and through the battles I still overcome (I suffer from mild depression and anxiety now). I have come back fighting because I know I am my own person who hopes to inspire children with various disabilities that they can achieve their goals in life. I may not be intelligent, although I put a 110% in my College work which I aim high in through studying the Childcare and Education Level 3. I am determined to get the B overall in it!
London, United Kingdom
