Hi , I have a question I found out today that my 6 year old son has autism . I do not mean to sound like a bad person I just wanted to see if there was anyone who has maybe had the same kind of feelings that I cant shake tonight ..... I feel so bad for not noticing this sooner in his life I feel responsible that he has had such a hard time in the past 2 years ... I took him to many doctors who told me that he was just having behavior outbursts and that he would grow out of it .... But I finally got to a doctor who sent me to the autism center a few months ago and they did all kinds of tests and today told me that he does has Autism . I cant stop crying ... Im mad at myself one moment for not pushing harder with the doctors to begin with then I feel like its my fault as his mother that he has had such a hard time and that he cannot connect with me the way my other two children do . I dont know what to say or do , I keep wanting to wrap him up and apologize over and over but he doesnt understand why Im upset ..... I dont know how to react , or tell him that mommy understands now that things are going to get better ......Is what I am feeling normal ? My family says yes that I did nothing wrong but they dont have this Guilt over them like i do .....Thank you for any support

heather waters
valrico, FL