Roller coaster feels a lot like life at times

I'm a single mother who has a 5 yr old boy who is still being diagnosed with how severe his Autism is. He has Expressive Language Disorder which means there is very little communication skills with my son. He gets so mad when he can't tell me how he feels and what he wants. He gets very aggressive and violent. Everyday is filled with steady screaming from him while I try to calm him down. When we both are so frustrated and he starts crying after his episodes, I'll start crying and then he will stop, wipe my tears and say as clear as day " don't cry mommy, it's ok". That makes me smile and he hugs me and kisses me. I work 45-50 hrs a week and have no car so I walk to and from work. There are some very good times with my son and he is the sweetest little boy. He started school this past Thursday and when I got home he told me how school was in our special language and was so happy when he actually had a few actual words mixed with his gibberish and when I looked at his paper from school saying that he had a great day and worked well with others and what he had for lunch, it was exactly what he had described to me! I'm so proud of my son for handling his first day of school so well. He said he liked his teacher, book, cracker,ran around(pe) and wrote and then nuggets and then home, and the whole time his hands were just flapping away!

Anonymous
Blue springs, MO