Stories of Hope

Share your inspiring, hopeful story of how autism touched you.

Joshua-Just the Beginning.

Joshua-Just the Beginning.

Our son Joshua is 4 non-verbal Autistic He can say a few words but most of his words are 'half words' or 'sounds like' words. He is super cuddly and he's very friendly. he gets social cues and he understands how to respond to them and he always tries to make people laugh with bold facial expressions.

Raising a child with autism is really challenging and rewarding at times, as most people who read these already know. My son is easily excited and he begins to arm flap and jump up and down, even over something simple. He does not do well when there's a change of scenery or a change in 'plan'. He wanders and in public I have to keep a strict eye on him. At home, he has been known to roam out into the back yard or down the drive way before we put up alarms on our doors to let us know if the door is opening. He can open child safe doors and locks.

He's limited in fine motor skills, and he still uses a fisted-grip when scribbling. He still can't make shapes or differentiate between colors. He tries so hard. We are just in the beginning of our journey and have so much more to learn. He goes full time to a special ed preschool through the school system and sees OT and Speech, and he goes to outpatient therapies in the summer.

We are always scared that we don't know his needs, we feel like he's trapped in his mind. His eyes speak, he's expressive and has really great eye contact when he wants to communicate something. I can feel it in my bones that he is improving his speech. These past two months he's been trying to string multiple words together!

Christine
Prospect, CT

Even Though I Don't Understand....

Even Though I Don't Understand....

I created this piece using an original song I wrote for a showcase I took part in. The song is called "Even Though I Don't Understand." This is my love letter to Griffin and to all the Griffins out there and their parents. Like my blog, the purpose of this piece is to connect with others on a similar journey, and to share with the rest what it is like to parent an amazing, complex, and loving child like my Griffin.

Missy Vaughn-Dean
Chicago, IL

Life of an Asperger

Life of an Asperger

I'm a 26 year old from the Philippines currently waiting for the results of the Licensure Examination for Teachers. Ready to share.

I was born with autism as a result of hard labor my mother had at me. Couldn't talk until four years when I started to wandering over the school disrupting classes saying "buddy-buddy-buddy-ohhhh" until my fifth grade when my the classmates took on bullying against me because at the time there were no special ed classes or teacher that will take care at me. On my first year of high school (now Grade 7), some psychologists of a private school took notice about my intelligence higher than normals with autism which was why I was sent to Manila on an almost weekly basis. Still they can't figure out what kind of disorder I have. I stopped schooling the rest of my high school due to it.

Even at college, some classmates can't figure out my behavior. Often I was teased. Completely ignored. Post college, the financial crisis took a toll on my part and the business processing-outsourcing people did not accept me due to my speech difficulties.

The breaking point was the moment my brother stayed at home for 18 months and took over my nights of computer usage. Most of the time he made harsh thoughts about me trying to be like as normal people does. I want him out and he's a physical abuser. Just by refusing to borrow him my laptop he kicked over my head multiple times and threatened to sent me into mental hospital if I did not shut up. Until his attempt to get into the bathroom where I was in cause to lose temper and kicked him out of the house. Even if my sister or mother tried me to forgive him, I chose to move on because he represents negativity in life.

Finally, my mother one day tells me I have Aspergers. I believe that adults with Aspergers deserves a life to the fullest. Now, I am teaching people with intellectual disabilities and I hope someday they would endure too.

Charlie
Trece Martires City, Cavite, Philippines

My Super Hero

My Super Hero

August 29th 2009 I welcomed my first son into this world! Extremely complicated labor I wasn't able to hold him until the next morning. When they placed him in my arms my eyes filled up with tears and my heart with joy. I was alive to see this moment now and it was time to start our lives together. Everything was good typical infant, as he started to grow though I started noticing things with him to me that weren't right. He would scream and grab his ears to any loud sounds, music, voices, crowds, I kept telling myself maybe he is just overly sensitive, I tried to take him everywhere I went, but would run into issues with crowds and loud sounds. His eating was another big concern as he would only eat certain things and at 5 years old still extremely picky. Now at 5 he sill still smell things and certain textures he still wont touch. he has complete break downs because he has a hard time communicating his wants and feelings, I have held him and cried with him I have cried in my car, to others, because I was just so lost, what was I doing so wrong as his mother to make him this way?. At a year he was tested for Autism and they at that time said they found nothing but was concerned for the Sensory Processing Disorder and wanted him re tested at 5, that was 4 years ago. September 27 2014 I received his diagnosis ASD/ Sensory Processing Disorder. I broke down, I had finally gotten the answers after 4 years but now I blamed myself. it wasn't until recently i stopped, I now do not. He has a diagnosis but that changes nothing with who is he is, he is my little boy and that's all I see, we are now in therapy 4 times a week ABA Therapy starting soon. Hes not broken or weird, hes my sweet beautiful boy. I will be his voice and he will teach me! Hes my Super Hero forever!

Davena Sigler
chesapeake, VA

My Super Hero

August 29th 2009 I welcomed my first son into this world, extremely complicated labor I wasn't able to hold him until the next morning, when they placed him in my arms, my eyes filled up with tears, and my heart with joy, I was alive to see this moment now it was time to start our life together, all was good typical infant, as he started growing I started noticing things with him not adding, by 6 months I knew some things were just not right, he would scream and grab his ears to any loud sounds, music, voices, crowds, I kept telling myself maybe he's just overly sensative, I tried to take him everywere I went but would run into issues with crowds and sounds. His eating was another big concern as he would only eat certain things once started on foods, he smelled everything I was like oh ok well he just loves smelling stuff, he had and has severe emotional break downs often and has a really hard time with his attention span, at a year he was tested and they told me then they thought Sensory Processing Disorder this has went on for about 4 years, ive chosen to think my child's fine he will outgrow whatever it is, He hasn't on September 27, 2014 I sat and received his diagnosis, ASD/Sensory Processing Disorder, I just broke down in tears, I asked what did I do? Did I cause this? I blamed myself! We are now in therapy 4 times a week, and I realize, my son is not a diagnosis, while he's on the spectrum, I see my son! I see my super hero, I am reminded daily that he's just a typical 5 year old and that his little brain is just wired a little different! I will be his voice, and he will teach me! He has taught me so much In just this short amount of time after his diagnosis, I am so thankful for the early intervention for him im already seeing improvements. My super hero forever!

davena sigler
Chesapeake, VA

The girl with Autism who will conquer the world

The girl with Autism who will conquer the world

Hello, I am Darcie, I was diagnosed with Autism at only two years old, I have had a lot of dreams in my life, but I never believed in myself because I always felt stupid, but I realized one day, I am NOT stupid.

I have worked hard to accomplish goals, including having a 3.5 GPA in college, having a job for almost 10 months, having a wonderful boyfriend who loves me, having my own place, having a cat, being able to cook for myself.

I one day plan on either being a Cardiologist, Anesthesiologist, Physician, or Veterinarian, because I love science, and helping people.

I have accomplished so much, despite the fact that I have a disability.

SO my point is, if you have Autism, and you feel like you can not do something, try it anyways, you never know what may happen.

Darcie
Burton, MI

Fifteen-Year-Old with Autism connects with Video

Fifteen-Year-Old with Autism connects with Video

Antonio has been uploading his videos to YouTube for four years. Initially, they could be hard to understand and some viewers would make unkind comments. Antonio was undeterred. So long as people were showing up to watch, he was thrilled.

Though he has trouble connecting with other kids in person and has been the subject of a lot of school yard bullying and rejection, connecting via a computer has been a far better experience. He's learned about video-editing, using royalty-free music, authoring DVDs and animation - all of this despite developmental delays, autism and cerebral palsy.

His shows are about pirates, evil twins and cowboys, and many are about his life. He publishes a "vlog" detailing his dog walks and day to day activities. He recently made a music video, "The Awesome Music", using natural sounds like a door closing, gargling and typing on a keyboard.

With a video camera and a laptop Antonio soars, alongside and sometimes past, his typical peers.

Though his parents tried to get involved, he's always insisted on working independently. He's had moments of frustration but managed to figure out where to look for help and worked through to the other side of every challenge. He's testament to the fact that we should never count these kids out. We just need to know when to get out of the way sometimes.

Now, at fifteen-years-old he has three channels, one "Copyrightmoviestvshowsongs funny videos guy" has 400,000 views and 380 subscribers. His goal is to get to 400 subscribers. I have no doubt he will get there and beyond.

Juliana Piccillo
Tucson, AZ

A new understanding

A new understanding

Hey everyone my name is Jackie i am 22 and i am the mother of two amazing little girls. Chloie is almost 4 and Makennley is 2 months old. Both little girls different in so many ways. I gave birth to Chloie on feb 20th 2011 and she was my blessing from god... After 8 miscarriages and finding out her pregnancy was a twin pregnancy and loosing her twin at 10 weeks i cherished every day that little girl was inside me growing strong and healthy... Chloie Noelle Jackson was born at 38 weeks and was 5 pounds 13 oz and 19.5 in long... she was pure perfection... i was 18 years old and knew being a single teen parent was going to be hard.. but i had no idea what i was truly in for. As chloie grew older their was no doubt she was the smartest little girl i knew...but something just was not right... She would not talk and was not walking as soon as she should have been... at about twoshe started saying single words like momma and milk and cup. Just the basic words most one year old knew and at two she was walking good but was VERY clumsy and super hyper... I met my Husband a month after my daughter turned two years old and he fell in love with her. But even right away he noticed she was a bit different... She never talked much and had so much energy that it was unreal she never took a break... After weeks of debate we decided to take her to the doctors and talk about why she was so behind on talking and why she was so out of control.... It has been so hard and difficult. Family members will not even watch her because she is so out of control and i did not know why until a week ago.. One week ago my now almost 4 year old was diagnosed with ADHD and Autism and Aspurgers.. I am so new to this and not sure how to take this all in.

Jackie
longview, WA

love of my life

When I first found out I was pregnant with my son Hayden, I was 5 months along already. He was the best thing that ever happened to me because he saved it.
My life was going down the drain and fast but once I found out then gave birth, my life has never been better.
My son wasn't diagnosed until he was five years old, should half way through pre-k. I may not have liked what I heard but it explained so much to me as well.
Ever since then, my son has become brighter everyday. He may test me or the teachers, but I'm always learning. He teaches me to view the world differently then I could ever imagine.
Everyone he views as a friend and he doesn't judge. He loves everyone and makes my life full. I feel like through him, I see a million rainbows. Nothing is ever wrong or right, it just is. He's a strong independent boy and is laughing all the time. His smile lights up my world and I couldn't be more proud.

Deanna Eaton
Mount Airy, NC

If I could only walk a mile in his shoes....

If I could only walk a mile in his shoes....

My son, Dyson was diagnosed with autism at 2 yo. There were no signs of it prior to the age of 13 months; by 15 months, I could no longer keep inside the changes I was rapidly seeing in him. All the typical signs of autism were there suddenly. He would not respond to his own name anymore, he avoided other kids when they tried to join his play, he walked on his tip-toes, he was not saying any of 9 to 11 words he was saying before, etc. At first I was so consumed with doctor visits and research, that I didn't think about the bigger picture. My son now 9 years old, has been going to public school since he was 3. He is and always has been very loving boy. Although considered non-verbal, he does communicated through sign-language, PECS. Dyson has tons of love, support. His little sisters at their young ages look out for him, as well as cousins, friends. You don't know the places autism can take a person until you are living it every single day. I have cried numerous nights. At first it was always "WHY?" and then after some time, I don't recall when, I embrace autism. Its what I know, and in a sense it was "normal" to me. These children are gifted. Its a shame that this whole spectrum has miles of chaos and unanswered questions! A part of me is throwing my hands up and saying, "my child is fine, why try fixing what isn't broken?" and other parts of me are torn, thinking about what his adult life is going to be like, and the all infamous wonder of all parents of autistic children, "who is going to be there for him/her after I am gone?"

Anonymous
Federal Dam, MN